I know there's something wrong. I know you don't feel good right now. Maybe I'm making wild guesses here. After reading what you post, just got a feeling it's kind of related to your past.

You used to be a happy girl with of friends. You also treasures those moments with them. You love to club and you have found someone who can always make you smile and make the whole thing so fun. However, you lost it.

You miss those times. I know. Even though you don't tell me. You always keep things to yourself. You say you don't like to share your feelings with others. also told you I'm your bf and if I also don't have the position for you to share your thoughts to, to complain, to talk to when have troubles, raaly feel ueless.

I'm not trying to spill everything out here but for very long, still feel very contradicted. Still remember the things you said when we went to soup spoon and eat. It just contradicts to what you told me previously. Everytime we go drinking, you will cry after that. It really hurts wen can't know what happen. It hurts wen you just keep everything yourself.

You posted this before that you rather be with the correct person and ad than wrong person and happy. But the other party will just feel that he failed. Failed to make you happy.
Be it sad or happy, make sure you really choose the correct path you made. No matter how much you can show me attitude, moodswing, I will still be here for you. Because iloveyou.